Alright, it's true. I'm pathetic. No, not because I am sitting here on a blog talking to myself, but because I actually gave up on a blog and haven't written in two months. So what if I'm talking to myself? Writing is something you do for personal pleasure and then work to expand it to bring pleasure to others.
So, it's 12:16 AM on December 28th, 2011. And for some reason, at this very moment, I feel compelled to explain my blog name.
Out of all the emotional battles I'm struggling with right now, my biggest one is learning how to be myself. As insecure as that makes me sound, you probably would never know it unless you were pretty fancy with psychologically detecting things. I am beautiful. I am smart. I am amazing. I am all of these things, whether I want to admit it or not.
Well, that yet again makes me sound conceded; like someone I'm not--or is this who I am?
The other day in my English class my teacher told us to a writing exercise where we would just write whatever came to mind. She gave us two prompts: I am a talker; I am a listener. I wrote about how I am a talker, how I wish to enlighten people with my words although I always feel as if I have failed.
And somewhere along the way, I realized, this is my shadow.
Living in a world full of societal expectations, it's not easy for us to give in to other's standards. In fact, it's quite easy. But what's not easy for some of us is giving in to our own standards, listening to who we are. We need to Identify Ourselves. We need to be our own people and not let others get to us. But how do we know who we are when we're mixed in with everyone else?
Our shadow.
No matter how much makeup we're wearing, no matter how fake we're acting, our true identity is in our shadow.
So, show me your shadow. Show me that I'm not alone, and that we all have a beautiful shadow.
Love,
Justine
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